vashsgirlaim:
like start taking my pills again, keeping my room/car clean, doing more homework, finding a job
vashsgirlaim:
and my body
vashsgirlaim:
all things that i just let go after a few weeks of trying
vashsgirlaim:
idk why i am this way!!! i wish i could just be a normal person, and take care of myslef, and not be so fucking lazy and retarded
vashsgirlaim:
god i hate myself so much right now and i dont even know why
vashsgirlaim:
i just feel super trashy compared to everything they have here
vashsgirlaim:
james has his life together
vashsgirlaim:
and i dont
vashsgirlaim:
and its all my fault, its not like some other force has put me in the situation im in
vashsgirlaim:
its simply becuase of my own actions
crew nouveau:
You're not lazy
crew nouveau:
Everyone goes up and down with those things
crew nouveau:
I don't even have a car
crew nouveau:
And my room is always messy
vashsgirlaim:
yes i am, i never clean my room or my car and im fat and i never exersize and i never do my homework, and i still havnt found a job, its all products of my laziness
crew nouveau:
And you have reasons to do that
crew nouveau:
From what i hear you and sean have a stressful situation
vashsgirlaim:
ya i guess
vashsgirlaim:
im always stressed out
vashsgirlaim:
lol
crew nouveau:
Well jobs are just hard to find right now
